Yay, Education~!

It's nice to be back in school, especially because I enjoy my classes and schedule. I wish the gaps weren't so big, and others not so small, but I'm enjoying it all the same. I like my teachers for sure, and the atmosphere in all the classes seems pleasant so far. Although I gotta say, I've been oddly and randomly lethargic these first couple days, but I hope it'll wear off. Matter-of-fact, I was knocked ut early last night, somewhere between 7 and 10, and I woke up late by thirty minutes, but I was doin pretty good throughout the day~. I hope I can stay awake tomorrow, especially since I was falling asleep in geo last time (so sorry Mr. Crosier!).

In other news... We now return to Courage, the Cowardly Dog Show!! Just kidding ♥. (I wish I wasn't!) On the topic of 'dogs' though, I started reading Wolf Guy - Wolfen Crest. DAMN. Akira Inugami is hot stuff. Bad ass, noble, refined kind of goofy and hot as firey hell. I love his ears too. He's like a lean version of Guts in some ways. They would get along well. And his atittude ranks up there with Akagi and Kaiji in bad ass mode. Those four together... would be so FRICKIN EPIC!!!

But fangirling aside... I started Kongou Bancho too and got caught up on Yankee-kun to Megane-chan. Delinquents have been popular as mazing reminded me, but all of a sudden, they seem increasingly popular. I love it. No. I flove it. And seinen delinquents too, because Wolf Guy has plenty and Inugami would almost be borderline if he were full human. Almost. It'd be like Kongou style without all of the pure, straight-forward honor. (And I so love his line. I'm gonna spam it like mad.)

But I gotta be finishin that paper thingy... And here's to hoping I do it right. And I need to get to bed, though I want to read WG again. A new chapter especially. Maybe I can hunt down raws? And here's to hoping AWFTS puts me to sleep. I love Itou-san ♥.

Ahh

I remember now. I originally posted not to talk about all the fun and excitement, but to vent my frustrations. Even though it was at Macy's, it was closing and I privately tried to hold a serious conversation with my mom while everyone else was distracted. And then with my sister afterwards. Even talking to grandma today, I was brushed off. Though at the hair salon, she mentioned how Vincent did it and how they have to do it at work and even away when thinking of their career hell's. Their's is mostly excusable.

Not being able to hold a serious talk with family, is not. I miss tea time. I miss being able to talk with Jalysa and Taylor about serious matters and have a light air on the side. I like being able to get into deep, sometimes grave matters and understand each other. I hate being brushed off and ignored. In general, but it's worse when I want to have a serious talk. Or they just refuse to be serious.

I don't like being the only serious one. But maybe I'm too serious sometimes? Too often. I don't know if they're too whimsical and frivolous or not.

But hey, next time any of them want to have a serious talk, I'm just gonna brush them off. I have to remember to stick to my guns, regardless of their defense/threats and keep my isolation. Can't even trust my own family.

Hur Hur. Murr.

I cannot find my Basquash. Not that I looked for 21 today...

Anyways, I'm slowly weening myself off of Gaia and its useless. But just a little. I have got to find a good place to RP. I hope there's someplace. I will hunt and hunt for it, man. Because friends, rp and frequent help topics are all that keep me there. The idiocy is unbearable sometimes. But that aside, I'm slowly getting reattached to dA and I'm also trying to pull myself back into drawing and writing more (and looking into that website more as well). I'm paying more attention to my interests and games as well... And family....

WOW! He's actually getting married. And I like his fiancee and her daughter. We have common interests too. We love cute characters, video games, cartoons and share a love for most Japanese stuff (I'm on/off with it lately). But I'm happy. I have someone I can relate to. And she can be serious and goofy.

And I'm fairly excited about school now. Mostly because a counselor helped me get my problem solved, and I have a college success class! I really hope it helps me find answers and myself. And hopefully I can stay dedicated to my classes (and creativity and interests). I'm also working on cleaning my room, organizing and still hunting down those drawings.

Aside from that... Nothing! I'm over the virus now, mostly, and looking forward to catching up with everyone. And now I guess I'll try and doodle an OC, eat nabe and convince myself to finish posting on everyone's deviations ^u^'.

A wonderful night, weekend and fall semester to everyone!

Just Checkin

As of now, still recovering from the virus (what am I, a computer?), listening to some new music and about to watch Basquash ep 20. I think it's everything I have wanted and waited for, but I could be wrong. Hopefully I'm not. But importantly, in my last journal, I finished feeling like I missed something and I indeed missed something valuable.

I wanted to talk about Thirteen Orphans (and maybe my general distaste of this horrible culture in novels). Thirteen Orphans... When I first read those starting pages with Albert Yu, the mahjong bit had me rolling my eyes. And so I shut, but tried to read it again yesterday. I didn't like how Brenda's dad was set up or that all these supposedly important people with Chinese ties/ancestry looked ethnic only in their old age and were half Chinese at best. It felt so white. Like 'maybe you grow into ethnicity?'(or however it was put). Uh, no. I definitely didn't grow into looking black. Anyway, I read a little further really skipping past any detailed mahjong talk and felt myself glare or be weirded out by the 'Mystic Orient' refs. After the third or second one, I just quit reading. And now the dilemma is, am I in the wrong or is the author? The author isn't Chinese (at all, as far I know) and it doesn't feel like Avatar (where Bryke researched, hired and traveled). So, am I just being ignorant and/or sensitive, or did they seriously just try to write a good novel with Chinese influences and degrade the race? The worst part is, I don't know who to go to. Racialicious? Angry Asian Man? LJ Comm? I really don't know. And another book I like just got annoying too. Magic or Madness is the only one I stuck with. Hopefully, I'll have better luck next time.

I guess it's just me, Perfume and Basquash now.

Well, damn

I just spent all of yesterday and most of today lying sick in bed. Right when that 'tonsil' stone went away, my throat and cough took turns getting worse. Then Wedn. night I could hardly without nearly jolting awake, and Thurs. came and at 3(:3o so to be exact), I felt it worse. I vomitted maybe a fourth or the gatorade and water I'd had that day. Maybe a lot less, is all I know, was that it was endless and painful and disgusting. I was so glad I had managed to make a doctor's appointment for the next day. It was weird that kept staring at the 'antibiotics...cold/virus' poster, like it was meant for me, and when I got in the doctor's office and he told me virus, I knew he was going to say there was no medicine to make it better, not completely, anyway. I'm on five different medicines now, but for symptoms and not the sickness. How come we don't have a cure for viruses? Apparently they can be quite dangerous (and I'm lucky I'm not hospitalized).

But I can't complain entirely, because I still got to read through 2/3 of the Magic or Madness series and still enjoyed Raina and her daughter. Just starving and being awake almost 24/7 but not so tired as usual has weirded me out. After tossing my cookies, I was afraid to eat or drink at all. And while I have started eating (in tiny portions quite slowly), I'm afraid to eat certain things. I just want to be better. I do not want to spend my last week of summer in bed. Why do viruses last two weeks? Why couldn't I just have the flu or something?

But oh well. Hopefully I'll be well enough when school starts and have a day or two to check out where my classes are and maybe even see a counselor. For now, I'll go walk around the kitchen like an idiot, wondering what to eat and trying to lie in bed calmly.