Well, damn

I just spent all of yesterday and most of today lying sick in bed. Right when that 'tonsil' stone went away, my throat and cough took turns getting worse. Then Wedn. night I could hardly without nearly jolting awake, and Thurs. came and at 3(:3o so to be exact), I felt it worse. I vomitted maybe a fourth or the gatorade and water I'd had that day. Maybe a lot less, is all I know, was that it was endless and painful and disgusting. I was so glad I had managed to make a doctor's appointment for the next day. It was weird that kept staring at the 'antibiotics...cold/virus' poster, like it was meant for me, and when I got in the doctor's office and he told me virus, I knew he was going to say there was no medicine to make it better, not completely, anyway. I'm on five different medicines now, but for symptoms and not the sickness. How come we don't have a cure for viruses? Apparently they can be quite dangerous (and I'm lucky I'm not hospitalized).

But I can't complain entirely, because I still got to read through 2/3 of the Magic or Madness series and still enjoyed Raina and her daughter. Just starving and being awake almost 24/7 but not so tired as usual has weirded me out. After tossing my cookies, I was afraid to eat or drink at all. And while I have started eating (in tiny portions quite slowly), I'm afraid to eat certain things. I just want to be better. I do not want to spend my last week of summer in bed. Why do viruses last two weeks? Why couldn't I just have the flu or something?

But oh well. Hopefully I'll be well enough when school starts and have a day or two to check out where my classes are and maybe even see a counselor. For now, I'll go walk around the kitchen like an idiot, wondering what to eat and trying to lie in bed calmly.