Saturday, August 22, 2009

Ahh

I remember now. I originally posted not to talk about all the fun and excitement, but to vent my frustrations. Even though it was at Macy's, it was closing and I privately tried to hold a serious conversation with my mom while everyone else was distracted. And then with my sister afterwards. Even talking to grandma today, I was brushed off. Though at the hair salon, she mentioned how Vincent did it and how they have to do it at work and even away when thinking of their career hell's. Their's is mostly excusable.

Not being able to hold a serious talk with family, is not. I miss tea time. I miss being able to talk with Jalysa and Taylor about serious matters and have a light air on the side. I like being able to get into deep, sometimes grave matters and understand each other. I hate being brushed off and ignored. In general, but it's worse when I want to have a serious talk. Or they just refuse to be serious.

I don't like being the only serious one. But maybe I'm too serious sometimes? Too often. I don't know if they're too whimsical and frivolous or not.

But hey, next time any of them want to have a serious talk, I'm just gonna brush them off. I have to remember to stick to my guns, regardless of their defense/threats and keep my isolation. Can't even trust my own family.

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