Wow

That's kind of all that can be said. I think I'm about 20 chapters away from being entirely caught on Neuro, and I gotta say, the last thing that felt nearly as close to genuinely epic and astounding to me was One Piece, and I think this surpasses it on a certain scale. I got so into it, I read a few spoilers and I'm a bit heartbroken, but hopeful (but I'll probably just be heartbroken in the end). I'm so anxious to see how things will go. For One Piece and Neuro, it feels like "wow, this could be the turning point. It could end soon!" But then Oda and Matsuei-sensei just do these amazing things and it's clear that it's going for a longer run, but that makes me excited and happy. And it kind of makes me want to get into this kind of field more. Where I can lay out a story and take people across all kinds of thoughts and emotions, but then I also see how simple my thoughts are. I think perhaps I rely too much on inspiration, but now I have a different kind. The inspiration to find my own way and style.

Well, I'm going to be ecstatic for as long as these manga keep up, and there are other manga which I was never ended. Even Berserk, I'm anxious for the ending but I fear for it. But I hope it never will end. I think Neuro Nougami, Berserk and One Piece are perfect manga. The shallow feeling of forced story and everything else presented in Naruto, Bleach and even KHR lately leaves me empty. I want a story that lets me truly connect, that shows me a world and that is always evolving and maybe changing, yet staying the same. I hope more manga like this will pop up. And I hope I can see the same in games too. Mario, Zelda and even Sonic in its own way. Mario from the early days (especially 64) and even to Galaxy is Mario. There may have been major changes in gameplay between Ocarina and Majora, and even style in Wind Waker, but they all had the key elements of character and puzzle. And Sonic, although it's changed so much and been through so many ups and downs, it doesn't run from the main point of the character, Sonic is always fast and free, no matter what the adventure.

I'm also happy with myself, the more I read, see and think, I feel I'm appreciating myself and my answers and finding me. It's hard to come to terms with death, but I hope to make my grandpa proud as he watches me change and evolve as a person, even if I can't share it with him directly. And I hope that I can make the best of these moments I have with everyone beside, and that these moments will last a signifcantly greater time.

More than anything right now, I want to live peacefully with the people beside me and find my way. Lets hope I can C:.